|The last photo loaded on my computer before it crashed. Geppetto snuggling on the spare bed.|
Well, I'm back after 3 weeks with no computer and I must say, it wasn't that bad.
When we lived in Sydney I found myself relying so much on my computer and mobile phone to feel connected to friends and family. I had been diagnosed with Post Natal Depression after Haidee was born and was promptly put on medication and sent on my way. I became a bit of a shlump-a-dink, walking around comatose as I averaged 2 hours sleep a night for an entire year. I used facebook to boost my self esteem, gaining "friends" and waiting for responses to things that I would post. I would use my phone to call or text friends and family for no real reason at all. In hindsight i believe I did it because I hated being alone. I remember that aching feeling of loss if i accidently left my phone at home, and the frustration at not being able to hop on facebook because my husband was checking his emails. I was becoming an addict to technology whilst little by little losing my own sense of self.
Then we moved to the country.
It's been 3 years since our big move. 3 years since I ditched the mobile (there was no coverage out here at the time) and 2 years since deleting my personal profile on facebook (I've only just started my own page). It took a while adjusting to it all and forced me to search for new ways of feeling connected. I found a new appreciation for the little things and for the beautiful landscape that now surrounds me. I started painting again, using colours that I haven't used on my work for years. I got happy and rather rashly, took myself off my medication (something I DO NOT recommend without a proper doctors advice, I didn't have that luxury at the time). I started dolly-ing up again, searching local op-shops for cool threads - something I always used to do but somehow lost along the way. I found Alisa again.
So when our computer died 3 weeks ago, I wasn't too fussed. The whole thing has made me look back on how far I have come and I'm pretty damn proud of myself. The only time I had access to a computer was at my sisters house last week and even then I was only on for a wee bit, checking emails and looking at a couple of blogs.
Anywhoo, I'm back now and I'm keen to catch up on all of your latest news. I've been making lots of new things however I can't show you them just yet as now my camera has died! LOL Oh dear, one has to laugh hey? ( I say this because before our computer carked it, our phone was out of commission too).
Nothing like a quiet country life :)
Have a lovely week ahead dear followers, thankyou for sticking around.