Monday, April 30, 2012

A country life with no technology

The last photo loaded on my computer before it crashed. Geppetto snuggling  on the spare bed.

Well, I'm back after 3 weeks with no computer and I must say, it wasn't that bad. 

When we lived in Sydney I found myself relying so much on my computer and mobile phone to feel connected to friends and family. I had been diagnosed with Post Natal Depression after Haidee was born  and was promptly put on medication and sent on my way. I became a bit of a shlump-a-dink, walking around comatose as I averaged 2 hours sleep a night for an entire year. I used facebook to boost my self esteem, gaining "friends" and waiting for responses to things that I would post.  I would use my phone to call or text friends and family for no real reason at all. In hindsight i believe I did it because I hated being alone. I remember that aching feeling of loss if i accidently left my phone at home, and the frustration at not being able to hop on facebook because my husband was checking his emails. I was becoming an addict to technology whilst little by little losing my own sense of self.

Then we moved to the country.

It's been 3 years since our big move. 3 years since I ditched the mobile (there was no coverage out here at the time) and 2 years since deleting my personal profile on facebook (I've only just started my own page). It took a while adjusting to it all and forced me to search for new ways of feeling connected. I found a new appreciation for the little things and for the beautiful landscape that now surrounds me. I started painting again, using colours that I haven't used on my work for years. I got happy and rather rashly, took myself off my medication (something I DO NOT recommend without a proper doctors advice, I didn't have that luxury at the time). I started dolly-ing up again, searching local op-shops for cool threads - something I always used to do but somehow lost along the way. I found Alisa again.

So when our computer died 3 weeks ago, I wasn't too fussed. The whole thing has made me look back on how far I have come and I'm pretty damn proud of myself. The only time I had access to a computer was at my sisters house last week and even then I was only on for a wee bit, checking emails and looking at a couple of blogs.

Anywhoo, I'm back now and I'm keen to catch up on all of your latest news.  I've been making lots of new things however I can't show you them just yet as now my camera has died! LOL Oh dear, one has to laugh hey? ( I say this because before our computer carked it, our phone was out of commission too).

Nothing like a quiet country life :)

Have a lovely week ahead dear followers, thankyou for sticking around.

Alisa x


Anna White said...

Well...even though everything else seems to be my dear sound more alive than ever ; ) So glad that your found the gorgeous, funny, unbelivably creative Alisa again..and we are all so lucky to have found you here in the blogsphere aswell.

Sending big hugs to you

Anna x

Mama of 2 boys said...

Wow Alisa, I feel privileged to receive this insight into your world. I think you're very inspiring and I'm so glad you shared it with us.
I have missed you these past weeks, but it's so good to know that you're A-ok and have been enjoying the break from technology. It is SO easy to become a junkie to it all. Takes a great deal of strength to pull away like that... and sometimes being forced to pull away is the best thing that can happen.
Your Gepetto is SO BEAUTIFUL, I think I need a pussy cat around here... hubby will just LOVE that!

Sarah B said...

Technology is rather frustrating. I know I have a tendency to get a little addicted to these things so purposely don't have s new smart phone so i have to take a break from the Internet and instagram (my latest thing). I'm looking forward to getting a new computer this year but have to keep reminding myself not to get too attached.
You sound like you are going really really well. I look forward to seeing your new creations when you can post them :)

Margaret said...

Thanks for your warm wishes Alisa! I have missed you on here. Glad to hear you had a nice break from technology. Looking forward to more blog posts about your beautiful country life!